breaking up

being in a band
is juz like being in a relationship
whenever problems come
u'd always try best to talk and communicate
and believe that nth couldn't be solved if there's trust and love
but when either side get involved too much
always care too much
arguement would dominate the bigger part upon happiness
both sides would feel tired
feel annoying
and when there's occasionally a chance to get upset at a moment and say
'let's give up, i'm tired enough'
then everything would come to an end
and u could never get it back and reform the previous shape
up until the last stage
u'd know the news about him from other pals
and those ppl would always try to be the middle person
dating dinner and gathering, give an attempt to stick it back like before for the reason that,
'u both are my good friends, i dunt wanna see you guys like this'
but actually that other side isn't caring at all
move 1 step when being kicked 1 leg
finally he'd say to ur best friends,
'please takecare of her more, she's good'
and here at the most stupid side, thinking
'would he get me back and said "i need u, dunt leave" '
even u try best forcing urself to stay calm and passive
and ur friends would say
'come on, let go'
1 month later u'll find new partners appearing at his side
and u stare from far away without focus
saying to urself
'i'm not bad, juz not good enough'

this is how i end the 6 years relationship in OLIVER
feelings flooded
in tears