emptiness in shibuya

radiohead is very very great, yet we should queue earlier to get a better place to stand
food is great, as usual. i'm looking forward for sushi big on monday.
weather is great, cold & windy, i'm so comfortable to wear less and let the body expose and get melted into it

yet.
i'm not happy
not anyone's fault
i just find it not enjoyable.
not fun.
missing someone in hk?
i dunno
maybe.
or not exactly
just feel so lonely and helpless
but meanwhile i found that i need private space and schedule,
kinda regret not to spend more to have my own room....
but seems they sense that i want to be alone,
and now all gone to another room and have their primary sch classmate gathering.
it has provided me a good time to cry
when i really found nowhere to for 2 days..

why everytime cry in japan
should be a trip that everyone wants to have
ha
so jit dor...

actually
i think
i dunt need anyone
i just wanna go alone here and there
eat watever i want
rest whenever i need
back whenever i'm tired or bored
sit wherever i feel comfortable..

thanks winnie for talking to me before the trip
it's a good lesson to learn already
and my heart is solid.
knows the way and attitude that i need to have and hold
so no worry
everything is in its right place



'u no need to care anyone. coz no one you have to care. just yourself you need to take good care'
kwan
this is the most valuable statement u made since i know u
its towards love matter
and yes
everyone's selfish
coz noone would love u if u'r not able to love urself well.


i used to think ur warm voice would comfort me effectively
and give me energy to go on for the journey
but seems it has become the 'bey hon' sound now la
watever
i gonna be on my own
and stay strong
there's no one to rely on
and u couldn't just get mad on the loved one
esp when far water couldn't kill near fire
he could just let u blamed
and argue when reaching the limit....

5am in shibuya
full of emptiness
bed time
i wish u'r here with me.
do u feel sam
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