the pseudocarp

kinda waste gas
as she's juz tat type of ppl
solution:
juz to show "i dunt give a damn" face always
(advice by another who did feel same)
and fake each other
learn to protect self
dunt let her hup 9 anymore

it's unrecoverable
and it's the pseudocarp

渣

世途險惡呀
今天又一人渣篤人背脊
人地番學有罪既
人地睇醫生有錯既
仲要落人通頂booking擺明玩野
你無屋企我地有呀
你唔係人我地係呀
通哥

ourlasttry

iris 說:
things will be fine if we'r true gd friends

iris 說:
juz need time to 磨合

iris 說:
as different ppl with different character

iris 說:
i dunt mean to hurt u and i know u dunt mean to hurt me too

iris 說:
juz somehow if u realize some truth, u need to change it. not just turn and run away, then happen in new environment with new ppl.

iris 說:
though i do think things wont happen in the same way with different situation and different ppl,

iris 說:
but to prevent things happening in cycle, u should know the importance of communication, and the need of bewareness of some of the words, and attitude

iris 說:
sure i know i did many things wrong too...

iris 說:
so this is the 磨合 bth ppl

iris 說:
honestly i could just step back and ignore everything, juz dunt touch it, b4 it goes worse in this way until current situation,

iris 說:
but i want u to know, we want to treat u as true friend, then we have to communicate, we have to change ourselves to form a gd bonding and relatinoship...

iris 說:
it's not 1 side, it's interactive.

iris 說:
meanwhile, we want u to know, though u'r older and have more experience than us on many things, in friendships, we want u to know and treat each other on 對等 position and condition.

iris 說:
if either side stands higher, tat will never be balance. and the main factor is called respect.

iris 說:
and to understand each other's character, change ourselves and suit corresponding to the friendship.

iris 說:
we notice it and we think we wont juz walk away and leave u standing alone upset about ppl and about urself,

iris 說:
so we choose to talk.

iris 說:
becoz we'r still good friends

iris 說:
i know we need time.

iris 說:
but i'd like to let u know, things and relationship could change, or turn in another way, even unsolvable problems exists.

iris 說:
please take care. i dunt want u to be upset and i dunt mean to hurt u. in another way though i'm hurt by u for many tiny matters, i believe that u dunt mean to do so too.

iris 說:
so let's take time to get change and things will go on track again.

iris 說:
i'm sorry i've dark face. coz u know i dunt like to pretend.

iris 說:
i need time too.

iris 說:
i honestly wish u seriously read my words. and really think about it. i'm not only a listener when u have prob, i believe that fat gor could do that job too if i'm so, i want u to know, i want to be respected too, as a role of a friend

iris 說:
time for bed.

iris 說:
and

iris 說:
i love u

iris 說:
i truely wish the 結構性問題 could be solved, by time, and by heart.

iris 說:
thankyou.






and so
she went offline without a line

the fakeness

i hate ppl situating themselves in such a high position
with the many 'experiences' they've had
and so to critique u without trying to know the truth
or to listen to the words of fact
plus the different attitude & manner towards levels
every single glance and every single words
with bones and distain
stepping on ur field of thinking and freedom
judging in a way without respect
and yet never seriously receive and listen to ur words when we could stand and comment as an outsider
juz keep on their way ahead according to own goal
until they hit on the wall and could still say "this is the right track and i've no regret" yet still think others are juz naive and not able to help
i'm really sick of it
wonder why i could get that upset with the issue

ok
get rid of it
and balance it with the very true of fakeness
lets shut and smile

o

in memorial of the quarrel 2 years ago
and of knowing for 5 or almost 6 years
i wanna write about him
and about us

tbc

the green head

another green head after another two years
again right b4 the taiwan trip
memories flooded

wish everything will run smooth in a true and honest way