tokyo in horizon

蟹鉗詩

蟹鉗啊~~
蟹鉗~

蟹鉗啊~~~
蟹鉗!~~


來留守到最後
來長途跋涉至天后

蟹鉗啊
蟹鉗.


您是怎麼樣的堅持
您是怎麼樣的溫柔

縱使皮是軟化掉
也許心裡都涼下來了


我都知道

蟹鉗啊~
蟹鉗!!

您是我這晚上的第一口
溫溫的把空洞
都填滿了~

來按捺不住
讓笑瞇瞇從嘴縫偷偷溜出來
瀉滿一地


蟹鉗啊!!!!!
來好好地擁抱吧!!

蟹鉗!!!

love letter

choiminghon

from the 1st step out the airport
i found that i'm finally back to the very comfortable embrace and smell in u
and could finally rest in somewhere i need
these nights
watching u slp
i was thinking
my heart is filled up
and is the very first time making me think of the days in future
maybe u would think i always worry too much
and dunt have confidence on every tiny matter
but u should understand how frustrated
to stand up again in one and one and one failed relationships
i fear to be hurt again.

i'm so happy to see ur smile with the present i brought along way back from tokyo
i hope u like it
i just wanna bring u the happiness from wat u want
we should go together next Oct
good weather and temperature in this season
eat eat walk walk shop shop
like we were in taiwan
and i would never forget every moment there
for how many times i told u
it's the happiest trip i've ever had
yesterday julius asked,
u'r not happy in japan?
i said, yes how do u know
'ur words and facial expression tells everything la'
oh really?
yes i dunno to hide any emotion
and everything just come and show on face in an instant way
tat's how i cry out tonight
wat had come out from my mouth
is already enough to ruin everything
u didn't take it serious
or get mad with it
but i really feel sorry and sad
it's something very hurtful to u
and to me
i found no reasonable explanation
and i dunno how to rewind and delete it
so and then the fear comes
and follows the tears
the very first moment i honestly fear to lose u
honestly fear to hurt u
honestly to think the way i should treasure u more

many ppl asked
why u would let me go for such a trip
under such condition
they commented
either u'r silly
or u'r so good that could simply trust me on everything
or i'm just not that important to u and u dunt really care wat might happen next
i answered
i would like to believe that he's a very very good man
cares much and let me do watever i want
this is the most treasurable
and for no doubt
i will treasure him with more and more of my love and care
this is the way to build up a good relationship

i had lesson from the incidents in this half year
time flies
but meanwhile passing slowly like we've experienced too much accordingly
i remembered u asked
will u tell the next lover that 'yes sino is bad in this and this and this... and i couldn't find happiness at all'
no
unexpectedly, things has been striked deep in heart
and i really changed alot becoz of u
aside from being more lan gag
i found that i learn to compromise
and view things in the opposite way like u always do
theoriatically it's easy to say so
but when come to hard and emotional issues
it's no longer that easy to work out
u taught me the secret of doing this
and i gonna keep it in the rest of my life.

sino,
i love you,
though we'd never know wat is love and wat it really means
but with the teardrops leaving on ur pillow tonight
telling me that
for no doubt
i'm really in love with you.

tsangkayee

finally fine

in the last 2 days
i was totally on my own
which i think this is the really enjoyable moment in the trip

and i'm finally fine

emptiness in shibuya

radiohead is very very great, yet we should queue earlier to get a better place to stand
food is great, as usual. i'm looking forward for sushi big on monday.
weather is great, cold & windy, i'm so comfortable to wear less and let the body expose and get melted into it

yet.
i'm not happy
not anyone's fault
i just find it not enjoyable.
not fun.
missing someone in hk?
i dunno
maybe.
or not exactly
just feel so lonely and helpless
but meanwhile i found that i need private space and schedule,
kinda regret not to spend more to have my own room....
but seems they sense that i want to be alone,
and now all gone to another room and have their primary sch classmate gathering.
it has provided me a good time to cry
when i really found nowhere to for 2 days..

why everytime cry in japan
should be a trip that everyone wants to have
ha
so jit dor...

actually
i think
i dunt need anyone
i just wanna go alone here and there
eat watever i want
rest whenever i need
back whenever i'm tired or bored
sit wherever i feel comfortable..

thanks winnie for talking to me before the trip
it's a good lesson to learn already
and my heart is solid.
knows the way and attitude that i need to have and hold
so no worry
everything is in its right place



'u no need to care anyone. coz no one you have to care. just yourself you need to take good care'
kwan
this is the most valuable statement u made since i know u
its towards love matter
and yes
everyone's selfish
coz noone would love u if u'r not able to love urself well.


i used to think ur warm voice would comfort me effectively
and give me energy to go on for the journey
but seems it has become the 'bey hon' sound now la
watever
i gonna be on my own
and stay strong
there's no one to rely on
and u couldn't just get mad on the loved one
esp when far water couldn't kill near fire
he could just let u blamed
and argue when reaching the limit....

5am in shibuya
full of emptiness
bed time
i wish u'r here with me.
do u feel sam
e